My mom is 4’10’’ and not even 100 pounds. My dad is 6’3’’ and skinny as a rail. Needless to say, I’m certainly not destined to be a large person. Sometimes I hate being a girl, due to the extreme emphasis that is placed on women’s weight. If a girl is too skinny, she has an eating disorder, but if she is too large, she cannot be beautiful. I have ALWAYS been teased and judged about my weight. I can remember back in first grade when my teacher weighed me in front of the whole class. We were doing an activity about tall and short, and she measured the tallest person in the class and the shortest. Then we learned about big and small, she weighed me and then herself. It didn’t bother me at the time, but looking back on it, that’s just the first of many experiences where I was criticized for my weight.
When entering high school I was almost 70 pounds. People told me I looked like a wet rat, while others just yelled at me to eat a sandwich. I thought things like that only happened in movies like Mean Girls, but apparently it happens in real life too! So by 10th grade, I became fixated on my weight. I loved having the ability to have control over that aspect of my life.
Anyways, long story short, I have always been highly aware of my weight…sometimes trying to lose, and less often, trying to gain. But now I am at a point, where I physically feel like I cannot put on anymore weight and it’s kind of scary. I keep losing and am only 1 bad day away from being in the 80’s again.
All of this to say, an eating disorder is a serious illness and is not something to play around with. I think that there are many illnesses that are stereotyped or less commonly accepted and that’s why I want to take this week to write and inform about some illnesses that are less common or less known about. The more informed we are, the better we can try to understand what people are going through, right?
So, some blog topics coming up this week include: eating disorders, cystic fibrosis, Lyme disease, depression, Lou Gehrig’s (ALS), Down Syndrome, anxiety disorders, diabetes, and of course dysautonomia. All of these illnesses are near and dear to my heart, as I have known someone with or lost someone to each of these illnesses. Can’t wait to learn more and share it with yall. Hope everyone is well.